Acidic Love & Nothingness

I found this beautifully sad post from Daul Kim's blog.


Daul was a supermodel who killed herself at the age of 20...

Image source: http://cantsaidtoabel.blogspot.com/2009/11/you-are-missed.html

You may find this a bit depressing, nevertheless it is something to think about. "Past is heavy, but past is past"


She also said "but when people grow together, its something that is not easy but is nice". It's true, isn't it? We all long for that special someone that we can be with for as long as it matters... 


"how can you be smart

when its love

i already accepted that i relate to nothing

past is heavy but past is past and

i can only try to understand



egoism

too much self importance 

perhaps

luxury of time 

perhaps just series of bad events which were only beautiful

the irony

the facade we put on

penetrating time.

but not egoism.

it is relative but different.

i just know

the more i gain

the more lonely it is

but when people grow together

its something that is not easy but is nice 

and that is something, 

relative.

staying relative is hard

staying honest is hard

i know i'm like a ghost

i have nothing

but myself

and potential, to me is the question of will

thats why i am present to you"

And I love her

Such beauty.
Such grace.
Such tenderness.
Such love.

"A love like ours
Could never die
As long as I
Have you near me"

...

Back in Ho Chi Minh.

I am home. And just had my fave home food.

I'm surrounded by love now. Why am I upset?

What am I supposed to know about friendship?

What am I supposed to know about love?

Tell me. You know I care enough to listen.

I don't want this damn unspoken war.

Boyfriend criteria

After a Friday's night out with my girls, dancing away in high heels and drinking red wine, I awoke at 9:00am this morning to Mommy on BBM (yes, Daddy created a Facebook page AND got a Blackberry to chat with his runaway daughters - my sister and I). Fast forward a few hours, I'm lounging in the living room, listening to Mario's "Let me love you" in this beautiful tropical weather. And BAM, I feel romantic. So I decided to make criteria and to-do list for my future boyfriend. Here it goes:

WE WILL:

1.     Watch "The Bucket List" together. Crying is optional.

2.     Drink red wine together. Getting tipsy is a must, getting drunk is not.

3.     Cook together. I like guys who can cook.

4.     Treat each other with love and respect. When we can trust and respect each other no more, it will be time to say goodbye. :( 

5.     Have great sex. And have it often.

6.     Go shopping for his clothes.

7.     Hug each other often. Cuddle and snuggle often.

8.     Have sushi at least once a month. And keep McDonald's to a minimum, please.

9.     Have a deep conversation now and then.

10. Show PDA - it's cute. But groping each other in public is a DON'T.

11. Respect each other's working time. Loving each other does not mean texting every 5 seconds.

HE SHOULD:

1.     Take me bungee jumping one day.

2.     Be fine if I decide to go for a pixie crop.

3.     Be cool with my guy friends.

4.     Be ambitious. Entrepreneurship is a plus.

5.     Have a kind heart.

6.     Understand my mood swings and treat them with ease.

7.     Let me drive as well.

8.     Be tidy and clean. Good personal hygiene is very, very important.

9.     Like swimming as much as I do.

10. Be taller than me in high heels, but not too tall for me in flats. (I’m 5’3”)

11. Have a great broad smile.

12. Love me, and only me. Flirting around is not accepted.